Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Insomnia

I've had a hard time sleeping these past several days wrestling with some anxiety and just thought I'd share. Keeping it real... This morning was particularly trying on multiple planes and yet, the Lord in His grace has continuously made His presence known... He is good, a constant companion and faithful provider...
As I circled back from dropping off the kids at school, I was greeted with a yard full of birds. I mean, they literally covered the ground. And then, I felt the Lord speaking to me. How does He speak to us? Through His Word, the Bible. My mind began to fill with Matthew 6 verses 25 and following...

"Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Lord at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?... your heavenly Father knows your needs... seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you...
Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble."

My sources of anxiety inducement still remain, but God is greater... I am His and He is mine. I pray you know Him and the boundless measures of His grace...
My dear mom made a quick trip down from Virginia while my dad had business in California. She brought a corner cabinet with my grandmother's china in tow. When Tony and I were married we did not register for china because I knew, at least early on, I had no use for it. Now I have the sweet pleasure of owning an heirloom from my grandparents... While mom was here, we made a trip out for lunch at the tea room downtown (with precious friend, Elizabeth)...

Titus and Joy had fun running the house...
Thought I'd sneak a picture of generous friend, Ms. Shelly, who helps James and Angela with homework and reading on Tuesdays. SO grateful for her!



Some posing with "babushka"...
Smile!
Ok, silly faces!


Thank you for checking in on us. I do appreciate your prayers as we have many decisions at present, primarily as parents. I hope one day I can elaborate. God is gracious to us, He guides us; in His presence is fullness of joy and at His right hand are pleasures forever more! (Psalm 16:11)

4 comments:

Patsy said...

Sweet Kimberly, I'll be praying for your anxiety to clear away. I can't imagine doing what you've done and especially with 5 young children. We all think of your family and pray for you often. By the way, we miss you. CWJC is getting ready to start another session. We had a homeless lady that came so far - through God's intervention she now has a job and an appt. she can pay for herself.
We love ya'll.
Patsy

trecia said...

Kimberley, your family is as precious and inspring as ever...you all.are in our prayers

Brittany said...

Thank you Kim for this beautiful reminder of his love and faithfulness towards us. You are a blessing to our church family. That verse was what I needed to be reminded of right now.

Sarah said...

praying for you all. I know how anxiety can affect everything. It is hard not to worry about the decisions we make that affect our children